I read a quote one day, it said “a smile is happiness you will find right under your nose”, it made me smile and think that this could not be more true and in so many ways the same can be said about parenthood. Being a parent presents you with so many special moments, all you have to do is see them. This is however sometimes easier said than done. In our everyday we are usually so busy, there are lists of tasks to be done before the day is over and it is not often that you see “enjoy baby smiles” on these lists.
Having JJ has changed my perspective on how I go about my everyday. I am still busy, but never ever too busy to cherish moments with him. The thing with babies is that you can never predict a first and likewise you can not predict a last. I know that one day he will not need me to sing him to sleep, but I also know that one day (soon!) he will start walking by himself. Being there for all of these moments is such an adventure and one day I want to be able to say “I am glad I did”, instead of “I wish I had”.
Every day there are little moments which actually turn into big memories. I still remember the first time JJ smiled at me and the first time he giggled in his sleep. I actually managed to get a picture of one of his very first sleepy smiles on my phone. Every time I get one of his sleepy smiles it just gives me such a warm fuzzy feeling inside, which makes me want to tell everyone how amazing being a mamma is. As you might have guessed, this is where the name for my blog came from.
Now, 1 year later I am so full of happy memories, many of which are captures on both camera and video, but most importantly many of them are captures by pen and paper. I was lucky to be given a beautiful gift at our babyshower by a dear friend. A One Sentence Journal for Mothers by the Happiness Project. At the time I did not realise what a precious gift it was, but as soon as I started writing in it it became one of my most cherished belongings. I have written in it every day since JJ was born. Of course there are days when I forget or think that I don’t have time, but I usually manage to catch up within a few days.
Now me and James appreciate the book together; he will say a random date and I will read out the memory for that day. You could say that the book contains 365 return tickets to moments that are otherwise gone, this is such a lovely way of reliving some of our dearest memories with JJ.
The first smiles, like the very first. The picture on the left was a selfie and he smiled for it. How clever! The picture on the right is from his first giggle which lasted long enough for me to take a picture.
We had just moved into our house in October 2015 and JJ was not wanting to sleep. Then he finally dozed off and rewarded my good efforts with a nice smile.